Here we go again

Those of you who know me understand that I am on a perpetual journey. Okay, journey schmourney. Let's call it what it is: a Battle.

Uhm, No.

A. Freakin'. War.

I have been beaten and battered and dragged through hell. And it sucks because I am fighting myself. That's the really sick part. The Rubik's cube of it all. But I refuse to give up. I will never give up. And by doing that. By engaging in the very act of trying, I gain a little sliver of self respect.

Every day that happens, I stack that hard-won sliver on top of the layer from the day before. It's a painstaking process, but you know what? I'm building myself some dignity, babee. Because I think that's the answer. Or at least part of it. Maybe if I can find some confidence and convince myself that I am worthy of living this life I was given, I can turn this thing around before I kill myself.

Yesterday was a pretty good day. Got up and ate me some multigrain cherrios with fat free milk. Went out for lunch to Panera. I decided to go online to see the nutrition stats for their menu. Turns out they have a nutrition calculator. You put in what you want for your meal and it abracacalulates it for you. For a right-brainer like me, that is what you call AWESOME!So I put in a few scenarios until I came up with an appetizing lunch that fit into my food budget.

Here's the link:http://www.paneranutrition.com/

Go crazy.